Sometimes I wonder...
1 times I've been loved.
What the meaning of life is & if there is actually a reason why we are all here.
Do we have an unknown plan in life that we don't know about & have to figure out? Are we even here for any reason at all? Do we all have someone bigger & greater who is controlling our lives, sort of like the Sims?
I know that everything happens for a reason & even though we may not know what that reason is or why but right now, it's fucking frustrating me because I want to know what the reason is for all this unhappiness in my life. Am I bringing it all upon myself? Most likely, to be honest.
I sometimes think to myself that it would be so much easier if I could just walk away from my current life & start new. As a new person, a new life. Somewhere where no one would know me at all, somewhere I've never been before. It sounds so grand to me right now.
Right now I'm not liking the person I am, not at all but I don't know how to change or where to start to make that change. I'm like stuck in a revolving door, going around & around in circles.
I really don't like where I am in my life. To be honest, my life is just one big screw up.
I don't even know where I'm going with this post... I'm just in a very bad head space & I don't know how to get out of it.
Ta da! - Don't be too harsh.
3 times I've been loved.
What do you think of my layout?
I made it myself with the inspiration from Georgina. I'm not 100% happy with the colours but these are the only ones that I could find that actually looked decent with the purple I chose (which I absolutely love the purple). Are there any colours (hex codes please) that you think would work better with the purple then what I have already? Any other advice you have for me?
On Thursday I handed in my assignment, I'm quite nervous about this one. I hope I get good marks on it. So fingers crossed.
Not much else has been happening in my life to be honest, still trying to work on my relationship with Hannes (as we have been having a bit of trouble lately). It's getting hard but I hope all the work we have already isn't going to end up being a waste. So send us your good thoughts please.